Word of the Day

Anonymous asked: are you planning to go see 'the beatles: the lost concert' film?

noo :( but thanks for the recommendation!

I know myself to be emotional, but it’s not easy to see me truly care for someone because I can be a bit…apathetic. It’s funny though, right when I started thinking about you I couldn’t stop crying because I couldn’t stand seeing you go through almost the same situation you were in before. It pained me to think that I really couldn’t do anything because I was so absorbed into my many duties and schedules, just leaving you there to take everything in by yourself. It’s a good thing today’s conversation happened because now I found that reason again why I really wanted to take you in my arms from the beginning and grow with you. Don’t feel so down by everything that’s thrown at you and stay as that mature and strong person that I know you are deep inside :)

Don’t give up _________, I’m here for you!!

10 Hours. Can’t believe it. I worked a 10 hour shift.

All I’ve got to say is… time is too precious to let go with nothing being done. Sure, I may have made quite a handful of money just from today, but I can’t help but to think that I’ve spent 10 hours working that I can’t get back. With finals also coming just around the corner, I could have really used that time to study.. I don’t know if what I did was right for me even when I knew my bosses asked me to work for a very good reason. I miss being the “student” that didn’t have to think about making money. I really miss it. I guess, on a positive note, this just motivated me to study even harder. Just one more week!! Then I will surely make my time worth what it should be :)

I guess it’s a bit late for me to reflect on my trip last week, but I still feel the same way about my realizations. I was totally infatuated with New York- the city life I’ve always dreamed of, the bustling streets, food, new atmosphere…everything was just so appealing.

To make a long story short, I think I can finally claim my geographical home to be California, or more specifically, the area that I live in. Not that I had a bad experience at New York, but I just had so much of a culture shock there…especially riding the subway by myself. None of that is in California, and compared to the semi-busy buses and trains here, the subways were just infested with so many people, trash, and odor. Though I absolutely loved the multiple subway performances as I was walking past the stations, it was just so uncomfortable for me to be seeing such a contrasting view that I had of New York. Never would I have thought that the picture of New York cities being so crowded would be portrayed like this. 

It’s also been a while since I’ve gone back and visit Korea, but I’ve heard and experienced that New York was alot like it. I can see why people would say that, since these two places really never sleep and it’s so convenient to walk around rather than wait in traffic even in small cities.

I’ve always had a difficult time deciding which country and state I identified myself in. With my aunts and uncles constantly asking me whether I like Korea or America better, I still struggle to choose between the two, even after living over a decade here. When I think about my childhood in the states, I reminisce about my house and friends in Missouri and how I really had a blast there. Recently, I’ve had the privilege to travel around several states to really see what kind of opportunities and comfort these places have to offer. But none is really any better than where I live. I love the mix of life, tranquility, opportunity, and community here. Granted I can complain about California in many ways, but after coming back from out-of-state trips I can’t wait to come back home. I really love it here. Haha. It feels good to be home.